© 2011 Howard McQueen
REPEATING PATTERNS
© 2011 Howard McQueen
My behavior is disrespectful to myself when I:
- contribute to and sustain a relationship where mutual respect
is out-of-balance, and is not recognized consciously by all parties, as the
most important thing to strive for.
- believe that I can nuture a loving relationship with anything less than
honesty.
- attempt to control someone else's behavior believing they or their behavior will make
me whole.
- believe I can actually grow by sedating and manipulating myself
Repeating Patterns
Until we recognize them,
we will remain under-the-spell
of patterns that we perpetuate.
Perceive these patterns.
Invite into your awareness as expanding through your perception,
Put forth an willingness to not become micro-focused with any specific character (such as a key perpetrator, or yourself or another as a primary victim)
or any recurring symptom (such as an ever-declining amount of money, I’m being evicted again, I’ve crashed and burned again)
Open your awareness to gain a bit of distance from the epicenter of your anxiety.
Allow yourself to consider the possibility for a shift in your relationship with your circumstances.
Imagine how this would contribute to a lightening-up of your burden, a lightness returning to your being.
Believe it or not, you are the ONLY Experiencer, the ONLY Witness to your own personal and unique experiences with the external world.
It is YOU, what you perceive, the judgments you make, the choices you make, that make you the Gatekeeper to everything you experience with the outside world,
The ever-changing, constantly in flux,
sometimes beautiful, sometimes calm,
sometimes frightening,
never stable-for-long external world.
Everything you experience in this outside world
lands inside your inner world.
You are the Steward of this inner world.
It is in this inner world that you, and me, and everyone else is invited to
ultimately face up to - the challenge to forge our intentions and responses to the external world.
We’ve tried withdrawing
We’ve tried hiding.
We’ve tried becoming angry and mad.
We’ve enjoyed brief islands of peace, calm and the deep affection of others.
Our pattern we are each familiar with is that
We are disturbed that our experience is always interrupted,
those we love fall into confusion
and are distracted and fade away from us
or yanked away
some (and way too many these days)
never returning
:-(
This is the external world experience we all, in unique and common ways, share.
We all live among the great suffering in the external world.
We need not suffocate in this suffering or embrace the patterns leading to victimhood and our disempowerment.
This inner world is our deepest dreaming.
You and I, we are the Keepers of our Dream.
It is this inner dream that you have complete stewardship of.
Put your energy, your nourishing, your love on the steward of your inner dream,
and allow the external world to be however it is going to be.
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