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I have not written anything since publishing my second book a year ago, but not long after publication I encountered a message that seems to have taken "my" apparent journey and leveled it. It's not a popular message and certainly not a message I would have chosen to resonate with, but there was apparently a readiness to hear it and "I" took the plunge into the deep end of uncompromising non-duality. 
 
The message, which has been called contemporary non-duality, radical non-duality, uncompromising non-duality, neo-advaita, etc., is an end of the road message, in that it gives the ​seeker nowhere to turn, no practices to do, nothing to strive for and no suggestion that anything should be any different than it already is. In a way it is a checkmate for the ​one who feels like they are on a journey.
Even though this is just a story, and completely irrelevant in the grand scheme of things, there is an impulse to share how "I" came to resonate with this radical non-duality message. I was an avid spiritual seeker for many years and spent the last several of them doing lots of self inquiry practices. It felt as if I was making progress on this journey toward Awakening. I was having Awakening experiences, insights, glimpses, etc. and I was generally at peace in daily life. 
Then, a conversation with a teacher I had been working with for a while, led to the recognition that the student teacher relationship was perpetuating the sense of separation it was intended to overcome. What seemed to be most instrumental in the readiness for the radical message, was the communication I received from a dear friend suggesting I wasn't dedicated enough to the practice and that I needed to up my game if I really wanted to wake up. That led to some frustration, confusion and a healthy dose of skepticism. At that point I stepped back from the spiritual community I had been deeply involved with and stopped trying to integrate practice into my daily life. I became a man without a country in a way.
It was around that time I decided to interview Anna Brown (https://www.wonderfullynothing.com/), who is the first person I heard delivering a version of this radical non-duality message. In my interview with Anna it sounded as if she had been through something similar and after she was "spit out" of her spiritual community, she discovered Tony Parsons (https://www.theopensecret.com/) and Jim Newman (http://www.simply-this.com/). It sounded as if these guys were instrumental in her path so I decided to check them out. 
I checked out Tony first and liked the message but did not quite resonate with him. Then, I checked out Jim and resonated so deeply I could not stop listening. Just listening to that message led to a deeper conceptual understanding of non-duality and also seemed to precipitate glimpses of what was being pointed to by the words​ (which is different than what spiritual teachers are pointing to)​. A new sense of aliveness and freedom seemed to emerge and the intense seeking energy relaxed.
Here are just a few phrases that seemed to strike a chord... (not necessarily direct quotes but what was heard)
This, what appears to be happening, is all there is...
Nothing needs to happen for this to be whole and complete... 
This is already what is longed for (though not what the me wants)... 
There has never been a me... 
The illusion is separation... 
The feeling of being separate is simply what appears to be happening and is whole and complete as it is...
Nothing can be done to end the illusion because the one who wants to end it is the illusion...
Awakening is just a story that keeps the apparent individual in a state of seeking...
There is no one who wakes up...
Seeking seems to veil the perfection that is already appearing as everything...
There is no one already...
There has never been someone on a path...
There is no path to what already is...
There is simply this, and nothing needs to happen for this to be perfectly itself...
Consciousness and awareness are part of the dream of separation...
Epilogue
I felt as though I was on a path, peeling back layers, making progress, getting closer to the end of my journey as a separate self. Then, I encountered the message coming through Jim Newman (who is doing a weekend retreat in Asheville on April 15-17) and the whole idea of a path and layers were seen to be yet another story.
At first it felt like disturbing news that my whole path and progress was an illusion. but It made perfect sense. If this is all there is then nothing led to this. And this isn't going somewhere. It just is what it is. Already. It's home. And it's never not been. Home was never lost. The journey home was already home appearing as a journey.
Feeling like a person on a journey toward some destination that never arrives, or arrives in fits and spurts, can be exhaustingWhen it was seen that no one ever arrives, the futility of seeking became obvious. The burden of feeling like a separate me on a path with free will ​fadedIn my story, the seeking came to an end and a great deal of energy was freed up. I had no idea how much energy was in seeking until it stopped. The character was ​then ​free to create, without the heavy sense of a doer claiming responsibility ​​for what happens of its own accord. Life just happens spontaneously and unconditionally, ​like it ​always has.
I was no longer making ​a ​problem out of ​feeling separate and things just got done without me claiming ownership. A new business was born (Maid Men is growing steadily). Things just ​appear to ​happen effortlessly, without second guessing. The character just does what it does without a me already, which is beautifully amazing!
Best of all, even feeling like a separate person (which is still the experience here much of the time) doing things in the world is just what is appearing to happen. It's not a problem. It doesn't need to stop happening. It could be no other way than it already is. The sense of separation does not need to drop away for this to be the home that's longed for. 
 
But when I was on a spiritual path, feeling separate, or identified with the mind, was a problem for "me" that needed to be overcome. It was a sign of not being "there" yet. More work was needed to get to some imagined future when I would feel liberated. Perpetually seeking for that which already is. Nothing right or wrong about it. It's just what appears to happen. It's simply completeness appearing to search for completeness. It's already unconditional freedom appearing as everything! There is no closer to or further away. It's inescapable!
 
There is no path to This because This is already all there is! I'm not progressing toward a final destination where I will finally feel complete. This is already complete and whole, just as it is! There is not a time when I will finally feel one with everything. There is already only everything and no me who could be separate from it!
Warning:
If this uncompromising message resonates, which no one has a choice about, some side effects may include: an unexplainable urge to listen to the message repeatedly, confusion, fear, anger, sadness, relaxation, glimpses, insights, loss of beliefs, peace, joy and possibly death (of the sense of separation). Caution: Spiritual teachings (or compromising non-duality messages) may become uninteresting or even cause irritation.
More writing may happen, but for now that's all she wrote :-)
 
Much love and light,
 
Trey
Uncompromising non-duality speakers
I also wanted to share some links to non-duality speakers who I have resonated with over the last year or so. I have interviewed a number of these folks and have Spotify links to those interviews as well.
And more new ones appearing regularly :-)
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Clarity & Light - An Evening of Satsang and Music with Ash Ruiz & Brian Piergrossi

Wednesday, July 31st
7:30pm to 9pm
49 Virginia Ave
Asheville NC, 28806

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Through cutting-edge insights into the spiritual path, mindfulness meditation, self inquiry, silence, dialogue and music... this evening is an interactive circle to live from you most authentic self and express it in the world.

-Learn to recreate your life story

-Live from your highest purpose

-Discover the true power of the mind and also the heart

- Discover your most authentic self and how to live in the moment

-Become aware of and transcend unconscious limiting beliefs

-Discover peace within and how to live beyond anxiety.

- Bring more fulfillment and success to your relationships, career, finances, physical/mental and spiritual health

- Create new powerful new friendships and celebrate spiritual community

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ABOUT BRIAN PIERGROSSI

Author of The Big Glow and The Wow of the Now, Life Coach, Meditation and Spiritual Teacher,

At the age of 20 years old, Brian was suddenly struck by a mysterious, debilitating illness, later labeled chronic fatigue syndrome, that lasted for years, leaving him in intense, daily, physical pain and too weak to effectively function in society. When no medical or other authority figure could explain the suffering that was happening to him, Brian made it his life commitment to inquire into human suffering.

What began was over 11 years of committed, serious inquiry, study and personal application into the fields of spirituality, religion, psychology, sociology, cosmology, ecology, health, arts, science, yoga, as well as the core of the enlightenment and self-realization teachings.

After leading a quiet, simple life for over a decade, Brian felt a passionate calling to share his straight forward, timeless, spiritual truths for the 21st Century in a modern context with those who are ready and interested.

Since that time, Brian has dedicated himself full time, professionally, and privately, to supporting the path of transformation, spiritual liberation and Self-Realization in individuals, families and communities around the world. http://thebigglow.com/testimonials

His highly acclaimed books and the viral Internet sensation ‘Love is the New Religion/Spiritual Conspiracy’ continue to inspire new readers worldwide.

He works one on one, by phone, Skype, and in person with influential personal life coaching clients from around the world.

He leads transformative Big Glow retreats, classes and workshops internationally.

Brian has shared his message as a featured guest on numerous radio and television programs.

He has lectured at colleges, schools, festivals, expos and conferences.

His blog posts are now shared to over a half million readers worldwide each day.

He is a professor at Entheos Online Academy and co-founded the online course Panic to Freedom.

He’s written cutting-edge articles for spiritual magazines.

He co-founded The Big Glow Online Community leading global online chats there weekly on aspects of his teaching and the inner workings of the mind as well founding the growing international network of Big Glow Community Houses.

He co-founded the new Facebook Community: The BE Generation: Spiritual Community for an Awakening World

With the unrelenting sole intention of educating and facilitating the awakening of consciousness and creating the New Earth inside individuals and communities around the world, Brian Piergrossi is a voice of the integration of awakened spirituality, peak performance and human potential in the 21st Century.

“When the pillars of my limited mind collapsed, the roof caved in and I could take in the beauty of the stars. - Brian Piergrossi

More at: http://brianpiergrossi.com/

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ABOUT ASH RUIZ
Ash Ruiz was raised around the globe, traveling as a member of the Latin teen-sensation band, Menudo. At 16 he traveled to Machu Picchu for a video shoot. When he stepped off the helicopter and touched the ground, everything disappeared. There was no Ash Ruiz, no Machu Picchu, no llama, no Peru, no Earth, no Universe. All that was present was the ordinary radiance of clear, all-pervading awareness. The inspired mainstream music he began writing from that moment would eventually be featured on ABC Good Morning America, at the United Nations, and before tens of thousands of people across USA & Canada for the next 20 years. Learn more at http://www.ashruiz.com/.

"The heart of hearts is always open ... one but need take notice" ~ Ash Ruiz

TWITTER ~ https://twitter.com/AshRuiz

YOUTUBE ~ https://www.youtube.com/user/ashruiztv?feature=mhee

FACEBOOK FAN PAGE ~ http://www.facebook.com/ashtribe?
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DIETING (NOT BINGING) ON NOURISHING SEX

c) 2009 Howard McQueenA special diet-conscious potluck lunch was enjoyed by four of us the other day.- home made chicken and vegetable soup- Caesar salad (dressing optional, romaine with a drizzling of balsamic reduction for those observing a cheese-free diet)- gluten-free baked crackersTwo of the four at lunch had returned from their their ten day shamanic cleansing rituals. A new member to the luncheon group opened up conversation around the practices of Tantric sex, as well as polyamory.The opening discussion ranged anywhere from how do we treat our body sacredly, ingesting nourishment, to healing remedies that are, on occasion, needed to flush out toxins and stuck emotional energies.We then each offered up our own personal examples of how groups of individuals can choose to participate in the nourishment of intimacy. These practices ranged from participating in puppy piles, gathering in circles and singing campfire songs, playing music together, devotional singing and chanting, line dancing and the list goes on and on and on (perhaps you care to share your example?).We then slipped into a conversation centered around sacred sex and the practices of engaging in sex for pleasure, intimacy and to even provoke healing. Tantric sex, from the male perspective, involves holding and re-circulating the heightened chi. This is accomplished by the male being aroused up to the edge of orgasm/ejaculation, and then relaxing so that ejaculation does not occur. Instead, the pent up masculine energies are flooded through the energy body to provide nourishment and healing to the entire being.Our new addition to the lunch group spoke confidently about his migration to polyamory. One of the introductory exercises he cited in a polyamory gathering deals with building muscles in boundary setting. Each person was to mingle amongst the group (upwards of 150 people) and make sure that they were able to say "No" to at least three individuals. The idea was to activate and engage the no response that might have atrophied in some participants. This was followed by talking about the experiences, then making sure that everyone was very clear that asking for and receiving permission is a critical element in building trust.I know a number of folks that admittedly adhere to serial monogamy relationship, i.e. one lover-at-a-time over their life span. This is their current comfort zone.When I imagine being engaged with several lovers at a time (and at the same time), and to bring a conscious capacity to engage each and all in conscious intimacy, uncertainty and mild anxiety arises within my body.I remember (Ha! you might exclaim) the early 1970s as a period when lots of folks were experimenting with sexuality (bi-sexuality, group sex, tantric sex). There were always a variety of drugs around then as well, so pure consciousness states were often covered over with recreational and altered experience states. This was also the time that Federico Fellini was directing a number of masterful films that explored the inner psyche of man (Jungian psychology) and the erotica of sexuality. These movies are highly recommended for anyone wanting to widen their interests relating to human sexuality. Just participating in watching the movies will stir sensations and feelings inside you.For example:Amarcord (1973)Casanova (1976)City of Women (1980)Satyricon (1969)I've just updated my Netflix Queue ;-) !In my opinion, seek the counsel of your inner self before you launch off into a radical departure from what has been your established sexual comfort zone and continue to rely upon plain old common sense. I subscribed to eHarmony several years ago and I thought the eHarmony common sense guide to first contact with another was helpful.Gaining a deeper appreciation for your inner sexuality can make you more comfortable in your skin, as well as more comfortable sharing physical contact (hugs, kissing) - so long as you continue to appreciate the boundaries of others and the longings that may be like pots boiling over on your inner stove, as well as the stoves of others. Many of us out there may be extremely “needy” for intimacy.Anyone caring to share their stories and experiences may contact me directly. As always, I will maintain confidentiality. Howard@mcq.com
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That we have to earnor qualifyor please anotheror look outside ourselvesto receive the experience ofUNCONDITIONALLOVEisoneofthegreat, ancientfalse beliefsshadowingand haunting thehuman MINDandconstricting thehuman HEART.This particular infrastructure belief is the mother of countless false subordinate, orphaning beliefs. Cleansing, neutralizing, releasing and replacing this belief sets the dominoes in motion, allowing the universal truth, the native state of Love and oneness with all to shine through all of us.We are all designed and destined to learn that we can give ourselves the unconditional love that we've been seeking outside ourselves. We start from within, backfilling unconditional love, then just radiate out into our world, no matter what external appearances, behaviors or life situations are presented (or have in our past been presented) to us. We thus decouple (and at the same time integrate) our authentic self from (with) the frightened ego and ride on the ocean of love we are born to occupy. Vastness of freedom and deep well-spring of joy are phrases that only hint and point to uncovering our potential.
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Trey's Interview with Jeannie Zandi

I had the great pleasure of interviewing Jeannie Zandi recently (www.jeanniezandi.com). She is a great spiritual teacher that I first met back in 2007. In fact, she was the first teacher I had the opportunity to sit with in satsang (I basically lost my satsang virginity to her ;). It was a very powerful and transformative experience which I wrote about in my post “Tears of Joy” (http://compassion-blog.blogspot.com/2007/12/tears-of-joy.html).


Jeannie emanates heartfelt compassion and love, which she brings to the interview I did with her. It was actually like the two of us sitting together in satsang, rather than an interview. Instead of asking her a bunch of questions, I put forth some issues I have been grappling with recently (feelings of being overwhelmed, inadequate, etc.), and she dove in so we could explore those together. My guess is that many people could benefit from watching our talk.

Watch Video on YouTube - https://youtu.be/fl0rPxJyu8A

InJoy,

 

Trey

PS - The video has some glitches here and there, which only detracts slightly from the viewing experience. I hope to fix those errors as soon as I figure out how.

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What kind of meditation did the Buddha teach?

 A puzzled man asked the Buddha: I have heard that some monks meditate with expectations, others meditate with no expectations, and yet others are indifferent to the result. What is the best?
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The Buddha answered: Whether they meditate with or without expectations, if they have the wrong ideas and the wrong methods, they will not get any fruit from their meditation. Think about it. Suppose a man wants to have some oil and he puts sand into a bowl and then sprinkles it with salt. However much he presses it, he will not get oil, for that is not the method. Another man is in need of milk.  He starts pulling the horns of a young cow. Whether he has any expectations or not, he will not get any milk out of the horn, for that’s not the method. Or if a man fills a jar with water and churns it in order to get butter, he will be left only with water. It’s like filling a bowl with oil seeds and pressing them or milking a cow by pulling the udder or filling a jar with cream and churning it.  It’s the right method. ~ Majjhima Nikaya

What kind of meditation did the Buddha teach?

Truthfully speaking, no one clearly knows; however, we have a few good hints about the nature of the practice he might have taught from some of the Buddhist scriptures. From the above scripture, it is clear Buddha felt that unless one was using a correct method, one could not expect to gain Nirvana—the fully awakened state of absolute freedom and enlightenment.
 
Buddha also spoke of two qualities that he thought were fundamental to the fully-awakened state: Tranquility and Insight.

Two things will lead you to supreme understanding. What are those two? Tranquility and Insight.

If you develop tranquility, what benefit can you expect?  Your mind will develop. The benefit of a developed mind is that you are no longer a slave to your impulses.

If you develop insight, what benefit will it bring? You will find wisdom. And the point of developing wisdom is that it brings you freedom from the blindness of ignorance.
A mind held bound by unconsidered impulse and ignorance can never develop true understanding. But by way of tranquility and insight the mind will find freedom.~ Anguttara Nikaya
It is interesting that the two most popular forms of Buddhist meditation that are taught today are called Samatha and Vipassana.

Samatha meditation is based on the intention and persistent effort on the part of the meditator to concentrate the mind on some specific object of meditation: the goal being to develop the ability of the mind to concentrate because when the mind is in a highly concentrated state, it is known to be tranquil and such a mind, it is thought, would make deep insight possible.

Since Buddha explained that only the right method would bring the fruit, it would be valuable to explore whether Samatha meditation, as it’s understood and practiced today, is the right method to bring tranquility to the mind. The term Samatha actually means calmness or tranquility: an integrated state where the mind is not in any way excited or active. It is directly related to the term Samadhi, the state in which the mind is completely settled and unwavering and is effortlessly held in a fully concentrated state.

What creates this tranquil state of mind? In its fully developed state, tranquility is produced by the unbounded peace, freedom and wakefulness that are experienced in the unconditioned, infinite state of Nirvana. It is the total freedom and absolute happiness of Nirvana that automatically and spontaneously absorbs and concentrates the mind.
Meditate, and in your wisdom realize Nirvana, the highest happiness. ~ Dhammapada
The misunderstanding regarding Samatha meditation, as it is understood and practiced today, is the idea that the mind needs to be trained to gain the ability to concentrate through the application of strenuous concentration practices.
 
The mind will automatically and spontaneously achieve this highly tranquil and concentrated state simply by the meditator knowing the technique of how to allow the mind to be effortlessly drawn in to the Bliss of Nirvana. 
 
It is a common experience that the mind will naturally stay concentrated on anything that provides it with peace and contentment; this is an inherent capacity of the mind, so no training or practices of concentration are required.
 
It is the fulfillment naturally produced by of the state of Nirvana that concentrates the mind and this happens without any effort on the part of the meditator if he or she is using a right method of meditation.
 
Through the regular and effortless practice of a right method, the vital quality of tranquility will become stabilized in the life of the meditator and, as Buddha said, one will then no longer be a slave to one’s impulses.
 
In addition, because it is the natural tendency of the mind to move on to a field of stable peace and contentment in a spontaneous manner, the individual’s effort to try to control the mind to remain only on one limited object of attention, as is done with Samatha meditation today, actually obstructs the mind from rushing on to the ever-constant infinity and happiness it so much needs and desires.
 
However, it is not Samatha meditation that is the most popular type of Buddhist meditation; the most widely used form today is Vipassana or Mindfulness meditation. Vipassana is also referred to as Insight meditation, because through its practice one is supposed to develop penetrating insight into the true nature of reality. Buddha explained that through Vipassana, which literally means through insight, one should gain the wisdom that brings you freedom from the blindness of ignorance.
 
These days, Vipassana/Mindfulness meditation is practiced by the practitioner having the intention to be an impartial observer of some natural process occurring within his or her body, mind or emotions. For example, one is asked to just observe or be mindful of the rising and falling of the abdomen during the process of breathing, or to just impartially observe the incoming and outgoing of the breath itself.
 
Another popular form of this meditation is to mindfully observe the body in the natural act of walking or during the process of standing up or sitting down. The key element is to try to be continuously aware of whatever process is taking place without in any way interfering with or reacting to, either positively or negatively, the process that is occurring in the moment.
 
The idea is to try to be fully aware of the raw experience that is always happening and transforming by noting and letting go of each arising and subsiding sensation. This practice is supposed to bring one deep insight, perfect wisdom, into the ultimate reality of the true nature of existence in both its conditioned and unconditioned states. 
 
Unfortunately, this attempt to develop and obtain Insight through the practice of trying to be an impartial observer is not a right method. The reason for this is that the impartial observer, which alone is capable of right mindfulness and genuine Insight, is the fully-awakened state of Nirvana Itself.
 
The true impartial observer is never the attention or mind that is attempting to watch a process. The reason for this is that this very attempt is a part of the process itself; it is not outside the process.
 
In stark contrast to this, the genuine impartial observer is completely outside any and every process of the rising and falling of any conditioned state of existence; it is completely beyond the mind and any human intention or effort to observe anything.


Buddha asked the question: ‘What is right mindfulness?’

He answered in the following way:
 
When going, the monk knows ‘I am going’, or, when standing, he knows ‘I am standing’, or, when lying down, he knows ‘I am lying down’. Or in whatever position his body is placed, he is aware of it….Whether he goes, stands or sits, sleeps or is awake, speaks or is silent, he is acting with full attention. ~ Digha Nikaya 

In this above quote, it is vital to note that Mindfulness should be present even when one is sleeping. In other words, the process of sleep should be able to be witnessed or observed as it is naturally occurring.
 
At first glance, the impartial observation of sleep would seem to be impossible because if one is asleep how could one observe anything? The key to understanding this is that it is not the mind that is observing; in the state of sleep, the mind is sleeping and is not aware of the sleeping process or anything else.
 
However, it is possible for the Absolute state of consciousness, the state of Nirvana, to impartially witness the sleeping process. It is the unconditioned, transcendental, Absolute state of consciousness that is the true impartial observer of all the ever-changing values of the conditioned aspects of life, including the mind and its intentions.
 
It is this supreme value of life alone that is capable of being impartial because only It is without any lack and nothing can be subtracted or added to Its eternal status. Consequently, it is only the Absolute existence of the fully-awakened state that is capable of totally penetrating into the true nature of life and gaining the supreme Insight lived, embodied and expressed by a Buddha.
 
How then can one develop true Insight, Perfect Wisdom, into the ultimate reality of life?  If the human attempt to be an impartial observer of natural processes is not the appropriate method, what would be the right method? It is clear that the right method would need to result in the cultivation and integration of the transcendental state of Absolute Wakefulness, the state of Nirvana.  The Buddhist Shurangama Sutra offers the following deep insight:
Through which sense organ should I cultivate? You ask. Don’t be nervous. It is the very organ of the ear which Gwan Yin Bodhisattva used that is best for you.
Gwan Yin Bodhisattva perfected his cultivation through the organ of the ear, and Ananda will follow him in cultivating the same method. The Buddhas and Bodhisattvas of former times have left us such a wonderful Dharma-door that we should also follow the method of cultivating the organ of the ear to perfect penetration. This is the easiest method.
The method suggested in the Shurangama Sutra is referred to as the easiest method because it involves the simple and effortless act of allowing one’s attention to be with a sound in order to achieve perfect penetration. Perfect penetration means that one has been able to penetrate beyond all the temporal, ever-changing values of all the conditioned states of existence and become at one with the Absolute, unconditioned, eternal, never born and never dying peace and fulfillment, which is the infinite all-knowing state of Nirvana, the end of all suffering.
 
But, how should one be with a sound? What is the right method? TheShurangama Sutra offers further explanation in the following verses:
Ananda, and everyone in the great assembly,
Turn around your mechanism for hearing.
Return the hearing to hear your own nature
The nature will become the supreme Way.
That is what perfect penetration really means.
That is the gateway entered by Buddhas as many as dust motes.
That is the one path leading to Nirvana.
Tathagatas of the past perfected this method.
Bodhisattvas now merge with this total brightness.
People of the future who study and practice
Will also rely on this Dharma. ~ Shurangama Sutra
One is instructed to turn around your mechanism for hearing. What does this mean? Usually, one hears a sound when one is speaking or hearing someone else speak, or hears a sound produced by something in the environment—a bird, thunder, the rushing of a river, anything.
 
Our mind is usually outwardly directed into the environment. However, with a right method of meditation, one can learn how to effortlessly use a sound to follow it in the inward direction to its ultimate source. The right method here is in knowing how to spontaneously appreciate a sound in the inward direction within the mind.
 
It seems that this was a technique of meditation taught by the Buddha when he would give specific mantras or sounds (a mantra is a specific sound used during meditation) to his disciples.
 
The following sutra illustrates this point:
‘There’s no need for you to give up’, said the Buddha. ‘You should not abandon your search for liberation just because you seem to yourself to be thick witted. You can drop all philosophy you’ve been given and repeat a mantra instead—one that I will now give you’. ~ Majjhima Nikaya
The sound of the mantra is innocently and effortlessly experienced in its increasingly subtle values until the sound fades away completely and the meditator is left in the completely calm yet full awakened state of Samadhi. This natural process is what is referred to in the above verses quoted from the Shurangama SutraReturn the hearing to hear your own nature; the nature will become the supreme Way. That is what perfect penetration really means.
 
It is clear from these verses that the process that resulted in supreme insight or perfect penetration was a process that was conducted by nature itself: nature will become the supreme Way. It was not a process conducted by individual control or efforts to concentrate, or to try to be an impartial observer.
 
In our time, one natural process of turning around the “mechanism for hearing” is known as the technique of Transcendental Meditation (TM). It is an effortless practice that does not require belief in any doctrine or the following of any particular way of life. People of all religions practice it, as do people of no religion. Its practical benefits have been scientifically researched and documented for 40 years and it has been taught world—wide to over 6 million people of every race and culture.
 
In addition, this technique does not involve any form of concentration, contemplation, or any controlled effort on the part of the mind, intellect or emotions to distance oneself from one’s experiences by trying to remain unmoved, detached and impartial. This is a vital point because the Tranquility and Insight that Buddha spoke of were never meant to be practices. One cannot practice Tranquility or Insight, but one can easily gain and develop them by regularly transcending to the state of Nirvana and becoming at one with It. It is the state of Nirvana that is perfectly tranquil and the state of perfect Insight, Perfect Wisdom.
 
The right method of meditation would be one that is capable of bringing us beyond all the impermanent, ever-changing, conditioned states of existence to the state of Nirvana. It would be a method that is capable of completely transcending its own process and leaving us at one with the Absolute, freed from the illusion of a limited and separate self-existence.
 
Then, through its regular effortless practice, this method would allow us to fully integrate and stabilize this unwavering, Absolute state of Nirvana into all activities and experiences of daily life allowing us to achieve the goal of all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas—a world without suffering.
 
To conclude, the main point of this essay on Buddha and Meditation is that to gain the Tranquility and Insight that are the qualities of full enlightenment, to realize the Perfect Wisdom that blossoms into infinite compassion, one has to learn and use the right method of turning within.
It’s like filling a bowl with oil seeds and pressing them or milking a cow by pulling the udder or filling a jar with cream and churning it.  It’s the right method.  ~ Majjhima Nikaya

 

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Coming Home

© 2009 Howard McQueen (Version 1 22-Oct, 2008)I sit back, deep into the seat of my soul. I sit here because I know thru wisdom, the sheer futility of running away. There is no longer an option to run away or hide.The Here & Now are my home. My task--to remain awake and aware and, when (not if) I stray, to return to this seat and humbly continue this life’s work: uncovering and cleaning the heart of the dust-from-neglect, now caked into mud, from the tears wept returning home.Home is where I am completely vulnerable. And yet, paradoxically, in this energetic space of here and now, I am peace, I am sustained.I grow roots, sending these deeply into my heart. I then nourish this me-as-tree-of-life, letting the spirit of my heart expand outwards, growing leaves, blossoming. This inward-radiating-outward love, expression of myself-as-part-of-the-wholeness-of-life, provides a centering to accept and not resist the external world’s impermanence and ongoing disruptive sensations.The ever-changing theatre of the external world is just that: constant beauty mixed with ever-shifting drama. The compassion of strangers interspersed with the eruptive mental illness of humans trapped in their heads. Having had encounters with contagious mental illness, my response is an ever growing depth-of-compassion for those caught in pursuing the myriad strategies of the mind: acquire-before-they-expire, hide-before-they-can-be-hurt, imagine-shame-while-anticipating-blame, etc. This is the run-a-muck locomotive mind, not feeling emotions, the heart hijacked from its conductor’s seat.The external world is like the wind, ever shaping and scouring our surfaces. As the tree, I tap deeply into the earth like the great sequoias. I am openness, allowing the wind to play and have its way with my branches and leaves. I remember to bend when the winds are strong and erratic. The winds calm, the birds and butterflies return, and lightness of being with all creatures of nature is again restored. These states evoke a full spectrum of sensations and I let them all in, remembering to let them pass thru on their own way home. I remember (over and over again and again) to not construct elaborate expectations—just more fleeting castles-of-sand.Since I am spirit that bore tree, I am learning to celebrate fire as inevitable and elemental. Fire offers up destruction, creating the space for transformation of life. This body, like all vessels born into the external, is on loan, gifted, also returning home. I celebrate this gift, with all the uncertainties and lack of external warranties. To just exist and be connected to unconditional love, even momentarily, even while shouldering this struggle to be human, is wondrous, breath-taking, such a privilege to become … aware.Thus I serve that which runs through my heart. It is the current sustaining and interconnecting all life, it enables my reflection, it contains light and dark, it is everything--and I am Home.---Two authors motivated me to write this piece. Mark Nepo is an awesome spiritual writer and flat out fantastic teller of stories. Michael A. Singer's first book "The Untethered Soul" is also inspirational. - HM
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New Videos, New Book, New Sessions

Hello, everybody!

I've posted a bunch of new YouTube videos since I was here last, but the most important one is probably the 2-hour satsang video I put up recently.

If you look at the main website, you'll also see other videos as well as hundreds of posts I've written over the past few years.

Here's are links to:

1) The Posts page of AwakeningClarityNow.com

2) My YouTube channel 

3) My Podcast Channel --my podcasts are also available on iTunes.

4) My latest book, Awaken NOW: The Living Method of Spiritual Awakening which has been an Eastern Philosophy bestseller in the US, UK, and Australia. It's available as a paperbackKindle edition, and an audio book.

5) The Meetings page of AwakeningClarityNow.com, which will tell you about the new Awakening Dialogues.

I invite you to join many hundreds of people around the world, and come wake with me!

All love,

Fred

1 1/2 minute video: https://youtu.be/PPg4r-CRY3U

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Play With Perception Month - Bayou

 

“That which is seen is the reflection of one’s own consciousness.”

               -Sri Nisargargadatta

September is International PlaY wiTH PErcEption Month and it starts now, right here in Asheville.

 

What does that mean?   A new interactive art exhibit is happening in the River Arts District that invites you to become an active participant and write on the commentary art panels. As you view the finished paintings you are invited to ask the question:  “What is the first word or emotion that comes to mind?”.  Share your perceptions on the panels.

 

This is Facebook social commentary come to life.

 

It means that every day this month a painting will be posted online on Facebook and blog for commentary.  You are invited to play with the art as a mini meditation or self inquiry.

 

Along with the show there is a video visual meditation using the artwork in the exhibit., This will be premiered at the opening reception and be posted on Facebok and Julie’s website.

 

Play With Perception Month

 

 

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There Was a Time…

On the day of the takeover of the Capitol, I stopped to chat with my neighbor, who filled me in on what was happening. He asked me to say a prayer for our country, which I later did. It went a little something like this, “May we all find the peace that we seek and share that peace with the world.” Today, while reflecting on the recent events at the Capitol and the drama that continues to ensue, the impulse to write arose and here is the result:

There Was a Time…
By Trey Carland

There was a time I carried guns.

There was a time I marched on the State Capitol to protest an injustice.

There was a time I would have marched armed to fight for justice.

There was a time I was outraged at others who threatened justice and equality.

There was a time I was deeply involved in politics.

There was a time I feared the government was stripping away our rights.

There was a time I was fascinated by conspiracy theories.

There was a time I saw doom as a direct impact of what was happening.

There was a time I judged others for being ignorant of what is true and right.

There was a time I thought I chose my beliefs because they were true.

There was a time I realized all beliefs are built on lies.

There was a time I saw that others can’t be any other way than they are.

There was a time I would say, “Forgive them for they know not what they do.”

There was a time I saw myself as the other.

There was a time I saw there is no other.

There was a time I realized there is no Me, no You, no Us, no Them. Just This.

There was a time I saw it all unfolding with a divine intelligence for the betterment of all.

There was a time I saw the perfect timing of everything, and that time is always Now.

There was a time I saw that the Divine is always inviting itself to wake up and radiate peace in the world.

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I Want: The Birth of Desire

So, in case you hadn’t heard, our little Adorabella is two years old (hard to believe I know), and is learning the ropes of being a human.  She is talking up a storm and it’s so much fun to listen to her pronounce things.  It’s like she has a foreign accent that you can put your finger on, but she picks up on words so quickly.  She’s a happy little sponge and loves to have fun singing, dancing, smiling, making funny noises, laughing, and let’s not forget crying.  Despite what a happy toddler she is, she has her moments of frustration.  The underlying cause seems to be the “desire” for something other than what’s happening at a given moment.

As best as I can tell, desire is born very early and just gets stronger and more well refined.  At first it’s just preferences (i.e. I like this, not so much that).  Then, entertaining activities enter the picture, like things that she seemingly can’t get enough of.  For example, after we had our first big snow (which she loved), all she could say was, “I want walk snow all day.”  She said this for weeks despite the disappearance of the snow.  She would wake up and look out the window and say, “Hi snow,” even after it had all melted.  It was sooo cute.  She seemed okay with the snow leaving because we didn’t make a big deal out of it.

However, at a certain point desire brings on some attitude.  “I want...” is the way our little girl begins most of her sentences these days.  In some cases, if the want isn’t satisfied, screaming and crying can occur.  That’s never fun, but it comes with the territory, and we’re all learning how to cope with a life that doesn’t always give us what we want.  The only difference is that most adults don’t scream and cry if they can’t go watch DeeDee (Daniel Tiger) with Uncle NoNo (Shelby’s brother Norn).

It’s interesting to see the development of desire through an infant’s eyes.  There can be such great intensity behind not getting what they want, and it’s just a magnified version of the human adult’s reaction.  By the time we’re older, we’ve mostly toned it down a bit because we learn that we don’t get what we want by screaming and crying about it.  In general, we’re taught to ask nicely for things and learn new ways of getting what we want (maybe even by being manipulative).  Ultimately we become more civilized, but we are still adversely affected when all of our efforts fail to bring about the desired outcome.

Maybe I’m naive, but I think humankind has become worn down enough by not getting what we want for so long that we’re ready to be done with the pain that that causes.  That readiness, that ripeness, is where real change can happen.  When we run out of answers, when nothing we do seems to do any good, we may decide to open ourselves up to the unthinkable – give up on desires.  We’ve been crafting them since we were knee high to a grasshopper, so that’s a tough pill to swallow.  Our desires have become ingrained in who we think we are, so you may need to be at the end of your rope before you even consider giving up.  Plus, once you’re ready to give up, it may be too scary or you may not even know how.

Here is what I can offer if you are up to the challenge.  Things are not as bad as you think.  Not getting what you want is more important than getting what you want.  You are not being mistreated or punished by anyone other than yourself.  Take a close look at a desire that seems out of reach and see if it’s actually a need or just a want.  What’s the worst thing that could happen if a desire is not met?  How would you feel if you wanted what you already had?  How would you feel if you didn’t want anything other than what you have right now?  Would you feel complete?  Pick a desire and take a deep look at this.

The mind’s job is to step in here and say, “Without desire I wouldn’t have anything to work toward.  I wouldn’t get anything done.  I’d be stuck, complacent, etc.”  What if your mind is completely wrong about all of this stuff?  Have you ever been wrong about anything?  Be honest now.  What if Life has your best interest at heart and will not steer you wrong?  What if you can’t steer at all?  Can you trust Life enough to let it do the steering?  It already is, afterall.

There is nothing wrong with desire, but if you get too attached to the outcome it can lead to stress and suffering when things don’t work out.  Desires come and go whether you like it or not, so let a desire serve as a sign post and watch to see if it was meant to be attained or not.  If not, no big deal.  You’ve just gained more insight by not getting what you want, and Life may have created a new direction for you, which has it’s own sense of desire.  Life’s desire for you is for you to stop making your happiness contingent on attaining some future goal and to be happy Now.  Everything else will fall into place just as it should and when it should.  Trust me ;)

Yours Truly,

Trey

 
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NEEDING - by BillWalz

“We need one more thing to make us happy.  One thing leads to the next, perpetuated by our desire to have final satisfaction.  But the next experience feels uneasy, and we still need one more thing… The desire to feel satisfied is a continual process that drives our lives, and the end result is suffering… it’s just what ends up happening when we are driven by negative emotions.  -  Sakyong Mipham (Turning the Mind into an Ally)

 

What do we really need?  That simple question could well be an important key to happiness and wisdom.  And beyond the question of what do we really need is the more germane question:  Why are our needs so endless?  What are all these wants that, at a deep psychological level, become needs?  Sakyong Mipham, the Tibetan/American meditation teacher gives a very good answer when he says, “it’s just what happens when we are driven by negative emotion.” – as we certainly are, either very blatantly or subtly, much of our waking lives. 

 

We want things to be better; we want more for ourselves than life is giving.  We have an emotional uneasiness as to whether we are enough, and so have a rather unlimited sense of needing more, and for our situation to be better.  And when things are the way we want them to be, we want them to stay that way – but they don’t, they can’t.  Everything changes, but what we want is unchanging happiness - without even knowing what that means.  So, we experience anxiety, anger, jealousy, worry, sadness, despair – negative emotions that drive us.

 

There are many extrapolations of Buddhism’s Four Noble Truths on the nature of suffering, but a very useful variation is that we suffer because, whether we express it as a need or a want, we often experience that we need things to be different from the way they are in order to control our negative emotions.  Again, this can be on very blatant or subtle levels, and taking that extrapolation to the teaching’s resolution, the fourth of the Truths, we could say that the way out of negative emotional suffering is to not need for things to be different from the way they are in order for us to be OK. 

 

“Well, of course,” you say.  When this moment is the way I want it to be, I am fine, I am happy, and when it is not the way I want it to be, I am not fine and happy.  Isn’t that the natural way of things?  But herein lies our problem.  Our well-being is then dependent on the circumstances of our lives as we interpret them in our minds.  This is neither natural – meaning the way of Nature, nor is it an enlightened relationship to our unique human capacity to relate to life with abstracting intelligence. 

 

Happiness is a mental state.  It occurs in the mind.  Nothing outside of ourselves is the source of our happiness, rather our mind deciding it is happy with what is happening is the source of our happiness.  What is unfortunate is that we don’t realize that we have the capacity to cultivate the mental state of happiness (more accurately, well-being) as our natural state in a manner that can be largely independent of the circumstances of our lives.  Ultimate happiness (non-suffering) is the result of our embrace of every moment just the way it is.

 

One of the great Zen lessons – a Koan from the 9th Century Chinese Zen master Rinzai  – asks us, “This moment, what is lacking?”  And when we are unhappy, we believe the answer to be that what is lacking is what we think we need to make the moment more fulfilling, satisfying, safe, or whatever qualifier we have in our mind.  The truth is that when we are fully present in any moment in our natural mind, it is as contemporary Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh tells us, “This moment is a perfect moment, this moment is my refuge.”  Refuge from what? From the suffering, the unsatisfactoriness of having the moment being different than what in our minds we think we need it to be.  We live in the subtle and not-so-subtle experience of believing our fulfillment is not in this moment just as it is, but in some next moment that will be exactly the way we need for it to be to experience perfect happiness.

 

Buddhism teaches of the thickness and multidimensionality of existence.  Mostly, we live in the mind our society conditions into us, our egoic (what Buddhists call “little”) mind, trapped in needing for its fulfillment some fantasy idea of a perfect self - finding fantasy perfection in a fantasy world.  This mind is extremely limited in its perceptive abilities, and tends to focus on what is lacking, rather than the totality and potentiality of what is present.  This is the world of samsara, suffering. 

 

However, Buddhism teaches that there is also the macro-world of the Big Mind, of our Being-self, in harmony with the Universe realizing that there is no separate self. There is always and only the Universe expressing itself in its fullness through this form we experience as our self-in-the-given-moment, all interconnected and perfect just as it is.  Nothing is needed because to need is to be separate from the whole of what is, and there is no separation.  This is the mind of enlightenment, and this is the mind into which Buddhist teaching and meditation can open us.

 

Imagine the total freedom, the total liberation when we realize that at an ultimate dimension always available to us, nothing more is needed, that this moment, exactly as it is, is perfect, exactly as it is.  This is what in the Shambala tradition of Sakyong Mipham is called Shamatha – peaceful abiding.  Within us all is the ability to abide peacefully in the present moment exactly as it is, not needing anything to be different to quell our negative emotions, not needing to get to the next moment to quiet the restless little mind of ego questing for fulfillment of its fantasy identity in a fantasy world.  Right here.  This moment, nothing lacking.   This is enlightenment.  This is the heart of Buddhism. 

 

Does this mean to live passively?  No – it means to do what needs to be done to support and protect our lives and all life.  It also means to bring forth our efforts in the service of evolving an ever more conscious, compassionate and loving human society, but none of it from negative emotion.  As Asian philosophy expert Alan Watts wrote:  “Everything is as it can be.” And this moment is exactly as it can be as the platform for the next moment in the very big picture.  When we embrace what is, we can become courageous co-authors with the Universe of what will be. 

 

Nothing is fixed and permanent.  Everything is both being and becoming. What is, is.  And what will pass, will pass.  And what will be, will be.  And our fantasies do not have to be the impotent protests or the narcissistic desires of an individual driven by negative emotions from one perceived need to the next, but rather visions of what can be in an enlightened human society.

 

“The purpose of Buddhism is to study ourselves and to forget ourselves.  When we forget ourselves, we actually are the true activity of the big existence, or reality itself.  When we realize this fact, there is no problem whatsoever in this world, and we can enjoy our life.” - Shunryu Suzuki (1904-71)

 

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HONE IN ON THE CONCEPT GENERATOR

[Subtitled: The Lifting of Oppression]© 2009 Howard McQueenYour mind can be a tireless, vivid Concept Generator,that you mistakenly take up residence and inhabit.From this vantage point,You become the Grand Marshall of the parade;You broadcast your commentary,ogling at the magnificently adorned and decorated flotillas passing by.Life is celebration, your personal Charade.Inclement weather arises, bringing wind and rain.Colors fade, the parade’s temporary-ness fades, washed away.[I am] is imprisoned in perspective and choice.Judgment arises, supported by the minions of clerks, judges and jurorsand the vast resources devoted to JUSTICE & CORRECTION.Covert assassinations of character are already underwaysupported by the depth of resources devoted to DEFENSE of this [US of A].Will awareness arrive as another body bag, tagged DOA,or one more name inscribed on the wall devoted to M.I.A.?Meanwhile, the Oneness remains complete,unaltered, unchanged and undisturbed.It awaits and greets the storm’s mounting surgeAbiding in the SilenceHolding the SignalInvoking Love as the way, the light and the truth***“Mind as Concept Generator”, a theme arising in Satsang with Stuart after supper, this last night. Love to you Stuart, for all your work here and abroad!
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MAKING OUR WAY

© 2012 Howard McQueen

 

Make your way

back into your own gateway,

your center,

where all potential is present,

where heaven and hell are recognized

as arising from interpretation 

shaped by perspective

and expressed through intention.

 

This trinity: interpretation, perspective and intention,

when opened

and navigated with patience and reflection

provide the journeyer

with the necessary medicine of integration.

 

With this integration comes an integrative vision.

We experience what we once would describe as

   an ordinary, often limiting and sometimes fearful reality

AND

   We also sense the extraordinary potential for integration,

   as we occupy and hold the space

   for both what is

   and what is becoming,

   we become free of judgment,

   we become free of attachment to outcome

   we find ourselves beginning the great un-entangling

   in this duality we’ve spun.

 

Bless this all encompassing, amazing and wondrous Reality.

We actually are gifted with the ability to constantly re-center

and navigate our own way.

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A Contemporary Buddhist Psychology

A CONTEMPORARY BUDDHIST PSYCHOLOGYBy Bill WalzWestern clinical psychology focuses on the personal experience and history of an individual. As such, it explores a person’s distortions and confusions in perceptions, thoughts, emotions and behavior. It examines a person’s sense of self in relationship to their internal mental experience and their social interactions. Collectively these experiences comprise the personal egoic identity, a person’s sense of self-in-the-world as a separate entity in existence, seeking to find safety and significance.While this is a very valuable study, it struggles to be a complete enough model to bring truly transformational psychological healing. Might we rather examine how true psychological healing would harmonize the individual egoic dimension with a realm of mind that is deeper, yet one largely neglected by Western psychology – awareness itself. We need an awareness-centered trans-egoic psychology.For this, one effective approach is to bring the wisdom of ancient Buddhism into a modern context. While Buddhism is recognized as a religion, or a philosophy of life, it is, in a certain sense, an ancient-culture trans-egoic psychology. It is possible, borrowing from this tradition, to develop a completely modern trans-egoic psychology that honors the best psychological insights from both the ancient Buddhist and the modern clinical worlds.When looking at Western and Buddhist psychology, the principle difference between them is in the model of mind. Western psychology is basically two-dimensional. It recognizes the conscious and sub-conscious dimensions of the egoic mind, while Buddhist psychology, in addition to recognizing the egoic realm, also recognizes and emphasizes a higher and deeper realm of pure undifferentiated awareness. These realms of higher and deeper awareness are seen in Buddhism as the realm of our true, unconditioned self, as well as the realm of universal consciousness and interconnectedness. This psychological perspective holds that it is only when these ego-transcendent dimensions of mind are experienced as the primary sense of self, rather than some vague metaphysical backdrop, that harmony and wisdom can be brought forward as the guiding consciousness for healthy egoic functioning.Buddhist psychology and Western psychology both agree that the egoic experience is the product of conditioning, both bio-genetic-neurological and experiential. The difference is that Western psychology operates solely at this level, limiting its therapies to modifying the egoic mind’s most dysfunctional aspects through medication and emotion/thought-structure and behavioral counseling and interpretation. It can relieve grosser incapacitating symptoms, but does not offer a real cure. It is a mental illness model; it does not have a model for true mental health, while Buddhist psychology doesBuddhism recognizes the egoic dimension of mind to be a superficial, limited and deeply flawed mental representation of reality comprised of a matrix of concepts conditioned or programmed into the individual by genetic pre-disposition, society, culture, family and personal experience, creating, in a sense, an artificial reality. As it is superficial, limited and flawed, when ego is experienced as the primary dimension of mind and the seat of the self, humans suffer from a distorted sense of self-in-the-world, leading to distorted psychological, social, even spiritual functioning. In the non-scientific, metaphorical manner of Buddhism, this realm of mental representations or forms is referred to as “little mind,” while the realm of the unconditioned higher consciousness is referred to as “big mind,” the mind of all-inclusive awareness.The little egoic mind exists within the big mind of clear awareness that is the unwavering witness to our experience. Our problems stem from the little egoic dimension, with all its conflicts and contradictions, being experienced as the primary, even the only, dimension of identity and reality. Little egoic mind is the mind of condensed fragments drawn from the limitless reality of life-as-it-is, creating the experience of personal separateness in a universe of separateness. It is so limited that, in Buddhism, it is referred to as the mind of “illusion” (samsara), life-as-we-imagine-it. Since it is a severely limited representation of the total integrated potential of life, it is deeply flawed in its representation. As this perspective is basic to modern life, we are faced with the situation, then, that we all are, more or less, crazy.Western psychology then, is designed to address the “more” end of the spectrum, to help people stay within social “norms”, many of which are so arbitrary and limiting as to be crazy themselves in the bigger picture of human potential. The frame of reference for egoic little mind is always the mental forms of “me” and “the world-as-I-project-it-to-be.” It shapes what is possible in perception, thought and emotional/behavioral response to what has already been conditioned into a person as possible. As these perceptions are fraught with all the contradictions and conflicts inherent in the cross-purposes and confusions of their influences, which in turn, have been shaped by the egoic purposes of the forces that created them, it all adds up to a feedback loop that makes for insane people in an insane world, unconscious of the possibilities for real sanity.A contemporary Buddhist psychology is based in the Buddhist observation that we have sense perceptions, thoughts and emotions, but we are not these sense perceptions, thoughts and emotions. We are much more. These mental phenomena are but psychological tools for conceptualizing, experiencing and engaging the world. We are, at our essence, the clear undifferentiated awareness within which the perceptions, thoughts and emotions of the egoic mind arise and pass – here – in this contemporary modern life. It is the mind of awareness that can access the true nature and potentiality of Life – much larger than the limited perspective of conditioned ego.Such a psychology, of course, is also sophisticated in understanding and working with egoic mind, but it makes clear that who we are in our essence is not contained within the limits of our egoic mind. It is a psychology that holds that the ego’s conditioning can be transcended. It is a liberation from the confines of ego, about being a fully realized human being. It teaches that a person can essentially be healed of psychological dysfunction by shifting the sense of self from a locus solely in the egoic personality into primarily the transcendent dimensions of mind. It teaches that we can observe the distortions of the conditioned mind and make appropriate corrections from a dimension of perceiving wisdom deeper than thought. This realization is what Buddhism calls, “awakening.” Egoic identity is experienced as useful for social and utilitarian purposes, but no longer held as a person’s existential core.Healthy ego is important. This is not an either-or proposition. Ego is what makes humans unique and gives us the ability to engage the world creatively. It contains our faculties for language, ideas and invention. It is our capacity to live in the abstractions of human society. But in a Buddhist trans-egoic model, when awareness and connectedness replace ego and separateness as the centerpiece of mind, the dysfunctionality of egoic experience can be greatly transcended. Egoic content can also be reconditioned through mindful perceptions and responses into a more effective, accurate and personally secure self-in-the-world.Ego can now let go of its defensiveness, its need to dominate, to be right and significant. It can let go of its personal story of conflict as the measure of its importance. It can let go of its wounds. It can rest and heal, divesting itself of the life-long build-up of energy hoarded for its self-protection. It can relax. This allows for an authentic personality to shine through that has depth, ease, presence and effectiveness. The mystical Zen concept of “being nobody,” which means being fundamentally empty of identity in the neurotic conditioning of ego, then becomes comprehensible as a viable, highly effective way of being in the world.“So, challenges the Zen master, “Show me your original face.”From this orientation, the egoic dimension can also be reconciled with the higher and collective dimensions of mind that connect us to spiritual experience. This melding opens for a person the capacity to live from a wisdom and sense of connection within life. Instead of tampering with the parts, this psychology returns the person to their origin in healthy wholeness, nurturing the development of a vibrant, sane and wise personality.Thought and emotion can now work effectively for us. Confusion evaporates, and we are no longer the prisoner of our thoughts, emotions and behavioral reactions. We become a more liberated and aware person living with an intuitive grasp of the appropriate role for ego in our lives. We become truly “awake” in our lives, experiencing with clarity our multi-dimensional reality of ego and awareness as the truth of who we are.
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DEEPLY FEELING INTO OUR INTENT

© 2009 Howard McQueenWhen we are consciously experiencing the momentWhen we are aware that intent births actionWhen we slow down and feel into our intentWe see ourselves, carrying the energetic signaturesof peace and/or conflict.These fear/anger/grief energetic conflict signaturesare inscribed into our emotional bodystarting in the womb they do bloomand are carried forward,reinforced and replayed.These signatures are attentively and obsessivelyvarnished over with armor coating,then decorated so as to appearpart of the form and furnitureof the typical, dysfunctional inner home,sporting deeply disturbingsubliminal emotional graffition the family dining room walls.We redecorate again and againAnd are left puzzled and feeling a bit grim.Why is this same old shitcontinuing to happen to me?I cannot possibly deserve all thisbad-luck and F'King suffering-misery?And then one day, we are encouraged to deeply feelinto something held as traumatic,and magically, we feel it’s vibration becoming somaticand this visceral feeling carries within it something deeply authentic.We can now begin to connect to our feelings of discomfortand something much more deeply covered over,vibrates a call for help, all the way through the wallsand the varnished armorcracksand the innocent child is exposedand the keeper-demons rightly seenas sado-masochistic prison guards,not protectors or confidantsrightfully embracing and nurturing the childto encourage the new muscles forming around authenticityfor life to bloom in its rightful residence.And in this divine corporeal felt sense of selfconnection to the truth of direct experiencebegins the healing, the scrubbing and sanitizing cleanof the emotionally charged evil of defilement of selftriggered in repeated cycles of sufferingfrom over exposure to the inscribed, emotionally toxic graffiti.When you can truly feel the full composition of your intent,You will choose to not hurt yourselfAnd you certainly will not have cause toproject hurtful intent into your / our external world.It requires a slowing down to feel into intentAnd to stay with feelings of conflict and aggression,Transmuting these into a wine worthy of true fellowship.It all begins with me, with you,taking responsibility - internally!~ ~ ~And we honor that which is already presentnot trying to fix it or manufacture anything new - HM
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CHOOSING TO BE VITAL OR STALE

© 2009 Howard McQueenDo we choose to become vitalor do we choose to become stale?Every day presents these choices.Do we give in to the gravity of forced habitor do we choose to skate out at the edge,where the ice is thin.Do we keep doggedly pursuing our single grains of treasure,continue stroking that which brings us pleasure,or do we surrender to the callings of our heartand become pathless,before we become formless?For too long the ripe fruit has hung on the tree,for too long I’ve held on to securityand it has slowly been embalming mein my tiny held comforts.I sense the gypsy calling to be freedthe ancient fragrant rose unfolding,the stone tumbled in its rivergrows round, smooth and polished.I sense ecstasy and delight in these choices to let go,connecting to the vital mystery, entering the unknowing flow.
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THE PERFECT HI-JACKING OR ...

© 2009 Howard McQueenOur awareness, our sensitivity, stolen,given away, covered overPerfectly hi-jacked -- again.And the soul waits patientlyAs the suffering mountsAs the pressure cooker is turned up."Please me again" says the ego."Provoke me further" says the Anam.Bring your loving attentionto dig deeper into healing- my confusion- my division- my conflictI offer you the power of innocenceto cut through the veils to your truth.- Will you continue to hide your innocence?- Will you choose to keep hanging out in your distortions?Will you speak deeply the vows of unconditional Love?Will you take up and defend unconditional Love:As your only shield,As your badge of honor,In eternal communal collaboration,threading and weaving the tapestry of this life?Allow yourself to rest in this spacious, healing Innocence .Celebrate, Liberate, Share and Defend the innocence in Love
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HOLDING SPACE FOR EMERGENCE


(C) 2012 Howard McQueen
As it is being revealed to me ...

I tend to grow and evolve when I lean into
  my insecurities and my fears.'
  How about you?
There is something extraordinary that comes out of extending ourselves and our identity into the unknown
  then letting go 
  and feeling completely ungrounded and adrift
  for a seeming unknowable amount of time ...
  This has happened after my divorces
  after radically letting go of and trying to create a new career(s)
  after going through bankruptcy.
  It is exhausting and it is excruciating.  
Holding our inner discomfort and anxiety while manifesting this space has a way of preparing us
  for the radical shift,
  opening us to new connections
  new relationships
  and new opportunities for how we might ply our passions
  and uncover our gifts
  and enable the emergence of our contributions.
  And for many of us, it opens us to our legacy, i.e. what we most want to leave behind in this
  world.
As I look back, I can trace how this emergence has manifested in my life.
When I risked placing my identity out into an unknown frontier space,
  one that I had no familiarity with,
  I was eventually and always noticed by others.
  There has always been one of these others that I have formed a deep bond,
  a camaraderie of integrity
  of mentoring
  that tosses me a temporary lifeline,
  offers me an inoculating shot-in-the-arm,
  infuses me with a quiet and confident gusto and vision ...
What emerges is new ground and the inner confidence to stand firmly and claim newly uncovered aspects of myself.
It has always been well worth the price of admission
AND
I'm glad that it also bring with it a long summer and the fall of harvesting
before I have to step into the unknown, yet again.
Today, I am encouraged to remember that it is time to step into embodying and administering  
  this leadership,
  to bring my quiver of wisdom (listening and selectively sharing experiences) designed to enrich
  the lives of those 
  also willing to step into the unknown and
  call to them that which is named Emergence.
Every time I hear the end of the Unitarian Universalist invocation " 
    "... for we are now the Keepers of the Dream",
I feel the stirring of courage to face my own unknown.
Many blessings!
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