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WOW, WHAT A BODY!

(C) 2009 Howard McQueenHow do we define and contextualize the word, body?A group of cells capable of communicating and co-operating?A self organizing life system, capable of sustaining itself?The Great Coral reef in Australia could be considered a body,a living organism large enough to be seen from space.What we know about our human bodies is that they are miraculously complexand completely astounding.The diversity, the specialization, the intra-cell biology,all this organizing intelligencein the service of providing the "you" with a home,to exist in the physical domain.There is a growing mountain of direct experiencepointing to individual human beings as havingunified fields of experience.Languaging this can create a bit of a barrier,yet dozens of people I walk up and speak tofeel a great sense of macro connectedness withtheir animal companions, a few humans andunquestionably, with nature.We as humanity, our colony this earththis our spaceship, with its sister moonrunning laps around Sol,in relationship with larger and larger systems and bodies.We look inwardly into infinity,we gaze outward into infinity,we are bounded only by our perspectiveand our sense of feeling and behaving separate from all that is
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SURFACE TENSIONS

© 2009 Howard McQueenIt is a completely still, peaceful, sunny day.Great big silver clouds billow overhead.We are out, sitting on the end of a dock, gazing into a big, placid lake.Water bugs are gliding along,like little silent airboats.There legs do not puncture the surface.There are two teams of these creatures,seemingly engaged in a contest to move their team’s puck-likeobject past some invisible finish line under the dock.There is play going on everywhere in nature.Beautiful airbrushed green pollen is collecting along the surface.Leaves float by and nearby, ducks float as they preen.Geese take off and land, beating their wings mightily.Were this the totality of our experience base,We would have no inkling that water isalso yielding, silently also inviting;that we as land-dwellers, were onceand occasionally choose to be -pseudo amphibians,completely immersing ourselves,allowing water to engulf, surround us, flow into our cracks and crevices, even flow on to the surface membranes of our so very vulnerable eyes.The same lake, but we remember it naught,Now in the pitch black darkness of night.A friend holds our hand,they somehow know how to guide usout to the end of the dock.No moon or star light.We would be hard-pressed to take the plunge into this abyss,Even with encouragement.Perhaps if our friend went firstand they lit a lantern,then we might summon the courage to go in,but only after them.The lake remains the same.In a storm, its surface yields,ripples and white caps form.It allows and embraces the external forcesand returns,inevitably,to its natural repose.If you are observing and engaging life primary through the appearance of the surface conditions, remember that these are the prevailing surface tensions and often stormy conditions, that are not prevalent in the depths and dimensions below. There is so much else to discover and explore as we dive deep, into the infinitely deep wellspring that feeds the lake.howard@mcq.com
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(c) 2009 Howard McQueenLike pre-teen children enrapt in the play of Red Rover [1]we launch ourselves with complete abandoninto the strong, embracing arms of others.The faces beam at us, encouraging our charge.We find the line is strong,it almost always holds and contains us,while we spontaneously overflow in the pure ecstaticjoy and delight of play.I am recalling this now, as an adult,not merely to live in the past and reminisce;my work is to uncover and reconnectto these childhood states of unbounded estacy.I am shining the light,nourishing and cherishingthat living in-being,this child-self within me.Here is my blessing,to all these children, dwelling within us,desiring the gift, to come out and playcherished and protected,to bathe in the oversight of our unconditional love:I will give, in my turn,then it will be your turn to give,and then all the others will join in,in their turn to give,for the secret is in the giving,not taking,for there is an abundance to give from your well.and we will all fall into Love as we give unconditionallyfrom the Well,this eternal river of shared innocence, of divine presenceliving in the moment, overflowing,gushing this abundant ecstasy of joy to play.We learn to open wider, bigger, taller, deeperto the divine radiance,the living festival,the exuberance and downright, down home rapture,being in-body and consciously connected to it all,in this spontaneous, in-the-moment joy in playing,sharing and flowing in the spontaneityof this mysterious existence.We will open our hearts and give,no matter what arises.It matters not if our fellow beingssometimes fail to receive our giving,our highest purpose is to just keep givingand not be attached to outcomes,for we are all here to play with each otherand fall deeply into Love,with all of life.[1] For a reference on the children's game Red Rover, this was one of the activities groups of children engaged in before there were video games and other isolating distractions http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_Rover
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Building a relationship with Surrender

(c) 2009 Howard McQueenOur path becomes illuminatedwhen we show mercy to ourselves.There are many emotions that can nudge uscloser to relationship with surrender.Try placing surrenderin the centerof your vocabulary,then practice experiencing a relationshipwith some of surrender's closest (word) relatives.
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THE EVERYTHING-OF-YOU IS TAKING PLACE INSIDE

© 2009 Howard McQueenThe outer domainThe outside world is its own domain.Set it aside for the moment.The inner domainThe inner domain is your closest,most intimatehome.Its mechanisms, the heart and the mind,emotions and thoughts and feedback within your body.The heart emotes.Vibrational energies we call emotions flow,escape, erupt, ooze out of the heart.The mind amplifies, analyzes, conceptualizes and attempts to problem-solvethe energetic flows,the crud, constipated and blocked energies,the ecstacy and joyall these feelings and emotions coming out of the heart.Let the mind rest.Teach the mind to be alert,yet relaxed, in an untethered [1] state.Bring forward your inner observer,the watcher,your witnessing presence.Take up your residenceas the witnessing presence.Witness the miracle of your heart emotingWitness the mind, in lock step,amplifying the emotions and jumping into its own motion.Learn to remain present in this maelstrom and kaleidoscope,these mechanisms forming and functioningwithin your inner domain.Now, lets add the outside domain.Situations and events, in the form of vibrational energiesflow (sometimes it feels like the force of a fire hose),from the outside-in,through your sensory organs.Your inner domain receives these energies.Your inner heart and mind are stimulated,The inside becomes hyper-activatedAnd you … [insert custom-made drama here] engage!If you are resident as the conscious, witnessing presence,you observe, watch and witness the changes in your heart and mind.If you are absorbed in the role of your ego,You have creative license to react and engage,Or react, shrink and hide,Or play out the then thousand dramas of the human neurosis.If you are the witnessing presence,It all becomes known as a constantly shifting,cosmic jig saw puzzle of Joy.The mayhem and sufferingThe ebb and flow of egoic efforting,the trying to manipulate and control thephantasmagoric outside domainso it will stabilize and conform to a statethat will comfort and please our inner domain.Ha!The joke is on us humans.The gig is up.We may not have the overall operating manual - Don’t even need it.With these guiding principles,we begin to become intimate with our inner domain,we sober ourselves from this intoxicating plight,trying to manipulate and adjust the outer domainseeking pleasure-comfort and avoiding pain-fright.And we experience this astounding joy and delightthis surrender and freedom for letting go of trying to changeor manipulate, or fix, anyone or anything,all this totally uncontrollable life-forceresiding outside of us ..Shanti.Inspired by Satsang with Mickey Singer at the Temple of the Universe, Gainesville, Fl this past Sunday.[1] Michael Singer's book, The Untethered Soul, is a great read. I read it over two years ago!A footnote: The Temple of the Universe (tou.org) will be holding its annual New Year’s Eve ancient Fire Ceremony. I’ll be there, with my list of items I desire to annihilate, and liberate within myself. Perhaps I will see you there as well!Howard McQueenhoward@mcq.com
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RADIATING ONENESS

(C) 2009 Howard McQueenA blessing for the awakening of Awareness & PresenceIn this lifetime, we rememberand begin to fully realize:- Our source is the Womb of Life- Our true birth mother, our Earth- Our true birth father, our Sun- Our immediate family, the fifty trillion stars- Our fellow humans, individuated cells in the evolving body of life,we label humanity.In this incarnation,our indoctrination into the Earth schoolis complete.We awaken to our inner, conscious work,to clean and heal,the inherited woundedness, the infectionwithin our own, individual cell,and thus we are freed to take up radiating the Oneness,holding the energetic signal.We have aligned with our destiny,our highest purpose and service.All else will be whatever it will be,t'is not up to you or me,we know to just let it all be.
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Giving is Receiving

(c) 2009 Howard McQueenWhat better way to learn to give love and compassion,than to feel all the sufferingand experience the darkest dramas of the mind.What better way to stumble into Oneness,than to have felt the pain of seemingly being completely separate, cutoff and alone.What better way to learn that giving is receiving,than to have tried most of a lifetime to get,or manipulate others to giveto fill the void of one who felt so very needy.Joy unfolds in acceptance and surrenderto what has covered over the heart.Cherish and nourish your authentic self,let it guide you to abundance,and with complete abandon,radiate the wholeless of what you really are,outwards to your world.This is the energetic signature of the cosmos.The sun gives its radiance without consideration.The earth grows and sprouts life because it can.The ocean hosts and nourishes a vastness of life forms,orchestrating all this aligned with the rising and falling of the tides.There are no conditions attached to the outcomes.Life flourishes and evolves through unconditional giving.Giving is receiving.All else is taking from.~~~ *** ~~~ ** ~~ * ~We have been trained and conditioned to believe that we have to take to receive. This belief system is the root of scarcity and breeds competition for what need not be scarce, and, as a result, our world tumbles out of balance.It may be that you have yet to connect to your abundance. If so, consider investing in the book referenced below.This posting inspired by Session #9 of Michael Brown's book, The Presence Process
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WHAT NEEDS BEING DONE?

Writing from Lake Rousseau; Crystal River, FL© 2009 Howard McQueenWhat needs being done?Absolutely nothing, most of the time!There is so much surface energy in motion, swirling around us.The world we humans have created and the news we consume is so very agitated, so full of stories of victims and perpetrators and crime, violence and judgments.We are so activated, so charged internally with unresolved emotions.There is so much pent up internal pressure building inside us.Surely, something needs to be done!We so often take action,based upon reactionto the pressures building within.Such a need to escape and/or to blow off steam!We give in to habitour life built on the shifting sands of ego desire and aversion.So much general discontent,the choking smoke screen of an overall emotional malaise.WHAT NEEDS BEING DONE?We have the ability to focus on outcome.We ask ourselves “what intentions do I wish to manifest in this world?”We begin by really slowing down our experienceto a frame by frame sequence.We see a thought begin to bloom.We watch our beliefs attach and add fuel to the thought.We see judgment flair up and emotional energies add booster rockets to the thought.And then, all of a sudden, often automatically, we are speaking words, communicating body language and our actions are manifested.All too often NOT aligned with what we thought were our noblest of intentions.We have been hi-jacked, again!So, we slow it down, again and again,till we become increasingly conscious and aware of what’s going on within.And we begin to really see all the judgment and blame,all the hurt, stuck emotions,all the false beliefslike rust, ancient dust covering and obscuring our souls.We bring our heart to bear.We invite the heart to ripen, advocate and guide our intent.We begin to let pride judgment and arrogance be stripped away.We witness others giving unconditional love,and through this example and recognition,we allow humility to begin to extinguish our arrogance.There is essentially no stopping us now,so long as we call upon our attention and intentionand keep growing and living from the heart center.All falseness begins to fade away.Truth illuminates the way into the unknown,even with the continued bumps and faux pausthat will continue to obstruct the way.These build our resolve,give our love traction,great depth,purpose and meaning.And one day, we find ourselves living from the heartwith very little effort,giving others the unconditional love we have uncovered.We begin living our legacy, our greatest gift, loving life and ourselves unconditionally.This just happens to be what also best serves all of humanity.This written during a massive downpour. My small camper insert has about four inches of insulation in the ceiling and the noise of the downpour striking the roof is deafening. I look up at the rain stained ceiling and wonder, will the previous owner’s roof repair job hold out. Ha! We shall see, won’t we!If all else fails, I can make a dash to the clubhouse, about eighty yards away!
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EMBEDDED IN LIFE

Writing from Lake Rousseau; Crystal River, FL© 2009 Howard McQueenHow embedded are you in life?How “signed-up” are you for the full-spectrum of life?What are you willing to relinquish to live life more fully?Can you relinquish all pride, all arrogance, all reactivity, all resentment?Can you be with life without manufacturing and adding any self-centeredness?Can you put away the analyzing, fussing, worrying, fixing, manipulating and controlling your experience and just let life be what it is?Can you accept complete hopelessness - complete freedom?Can you imagine your life where nothing threatens your personal viewpoints, where none of your relationships create suffering?Can you imagine being so embedded (in bed) with life that you are grateful for every single experience?How do you envision opening to life so that life may call you into your highest service?Can you imagine being guided by simplicity, heart-felt love and compassion and a humane common sense for serving the wholeness, the sacredness and holiness of Life.This is the practice. This is a path that invites Grace to enter, gradually, then more and more …This posting informed and inspired by the book Everyday Zen, by Charlotte Joko Beck
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SNOWBIRDING ASHEVILLE

© Howard McQueenNovember 30, 2009Writing from Lake Rousseau, FL.In mid-November, I pulled up stake living in Asheville and tookmy truck, camper insert and boat on-the-road.Last night was spent in an Econolodge,with an outbreak of worries over“will I ever find a place again to call home”.Shortly after mid-day today, I signed a leaseand deployed my camper insert.My residence is now standing on four legs,Pointed out at Lake Rousseau,just north of Crystal River, FloridaAhhh, settled at last, temporarily,A transient, no longer disguised.I just made the fifty yard walk to the edge of the lakeand took a seat at one of the benches by waters edge.Here the lake is about a mile wideand is much, much longer.The clouds have cleared,revealing the nearly full moon.Next to me is a twenty-foot banana tree.Not a ripple on the lakeexcept when a frog or a fish breaks the surface.This will be a place to drink deeplyof the natural rhythms.It has been since the spring of 2005,that I left my home on Maryland’s Galestown Mill pond,another place saturated with natural rhythms.I am but an hour from Gainsville, FLand the Temple of the UniverseI suspect I am less than two hours from Tampa/St Pete/Clearwater.The rusty squawk of a heron pierces the night,A very far away dog barks.My next door neighbor is a retired cop.Some very nearby neighbor has a cuckoo clock.The clubhouse maintains a heated pool.I just signed up for and obtained high-speed internet.One month rent also paid-in-full,The successful RV parks in high season don’t let you go on a month-to-month.You only get your spot for as long as you sign the lease,And they can book you out of your space, without giving you any notice.Many new operating rules to become acquainted with,this first night at the Lake Rousseau RV Park,I am becoming acquainted with finding heartOn the road, wherever I go.Back to fiddling with the built in 1982 propane heater.Very little insulation in this pop up camper.Good morning.A bunch of contractors and/or fishermen left the park at 5:30 am.I noticed that they were running only parking lights,a courtesy for many of us twelve feet off the gravel roads.Off to get a shower now and see what the morning brings.Perhaps some boating and trying out that heated pool ...Cheers!
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