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DEEPLY FEELING INTO OUR INTENT

Posted by Howard McQueen on October 13, 2009 at 10:00pm
© 2009 Howard McQueenWhen we are consciously experiencing the momentWhen we are aware that intent births actionWhen we slow down and feel into our intentWe see ourselves, carrying the energetic signaturesof peace and/or conflict.These fear/anger/grief energetic conflict signaturesare inscribed into our emotional bodystarting in the womb they do bloomand are carried forward,reinforced and replayed.These signatures are attentively and obsessivelyvarnished over with armor coating,then decorated so as to appearpart of the form and furnitureof the typical, dysfunctional inner home,sporting deeply disturbingsubliminal emotional graffition the family dining room walls.We redecorate again and againAnd are left puzzled and feeling a bit grim.Why is this same old shitcontinuing to happen to me?I cannot possibly deserve all thisbad-luck and F'King suffering-misery?And then one day, we are encouraged to deeply feelinto something held as traumatic,and magically, we feel it’s vibration becoming somaticand this visceral feeling carries within it something deeply authentic.We can now begin to connect to our feelings of discomfortand something much more deeply covered over,vibrates a call for help, all the way through the wallsand the varnished armorcracksand the innocent child is exposedand the keeper-demons rightly seenas sado-masochistic prison guards,not protectors or confidantsrightfully embracing and nurturing the childto encourage the new muscles forming around authenticityfor life to bloom in its rightful residence.And in this divine corporeal felt sense of selfconnection to the truth of direct experiencebegins the healing, the scrubbing and sanitizing cleanof the emotionally charged evil of defilement of selftriggered in repeated cycles of sufferingfrom over exposure to the inscribed, emotionally toxic graffiti.When you can truly feel the full composition of your intent,You will choose to not hurt yourselfAnd you certainly will not have cause toproject hurtful intent into your / our external world.It requires a slowing down to feel into intentAnd to stay with feelings of conflict and aggression,Transmuting these into a wine worthy of true fellowship.It all begins with me, with you,taking responsibility - internally!~ ~ ~And we honor that which is already presentnot trying to fix it or manufacture anything new - HM
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  • Howard McQueen October 18, 2009 at 10:44am
    Thanks Sandy, The blog entries are great therapy as well for me. For a long time, the words did not want to come out coherently, so I resorted to landscaping and gardening. And early this year, some things internally resolved and the flood gates opened. Great to connect with you again and it is really lovely to know others resonate with what is coming up and through me. - Howard
  • Sandy Martin October 18, 2009 at 12:18am
    Howard, you said:

    These signatures are attentively and obsessively
    varnished over with armor coating,
    then decorated so as to appear
    part of the form and furniture
    of the typical, dysfunctional inner home,
    sporting deeply disturbing
    subliminal emotional graffiti
    on the family dining room walls.

    You have a GREAT way around words, processes, and phrasing!

    I really enjoy your blogs.
    Sandy Martin
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