(c) 2009 Howard McQueenI am sitting here on the hot seatin the spotlight I have now transformedinto an interrogation room.I squirm with my anxiety,a circle full of people watching.Quit F'King laughing and staring at this shrinking me.Truthfully, I'm having a dickins of a timeconnecting in this moment to my heart.In my swollen pride, I am not finding the pathwayor handle to add wings to the heart-feltness of "do-over".The AaaaRRRrrrGGGGof frustration is nowadded to my squirming.I feel pinned to the wallfully exposed.Today's poster boy,unable to measure up,caving in again to anxiety,trying to cover it all up with some mix of humor-hostility.And I sit in thisAnd I sit with thisOw, this really hurtsThen humility arrivessoftening the bruises from repeated fallingsand Heart reconnectsand the divine words spread their wingsand the messenger of Love unfolds.Mmmmmm. The dance of pain and ecstasy is alive and arising within.~ ~ ~
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(C) 2009 Howard McQueenEat your demons at breakfast todayElse they shall just be 24-hour-a-dayParasites,snacking on your essence,stealing your thunder,strapping on their hi-jacking chargesto collapse your backbone.Their destructive nature is insidious and relentlessas they work diligently to encourage you to cover over and encase your heart.~ ~ ~I've recently reconnected to my Buddhist acupuncturist. His recent treatment has to do with synchronizing gates between my intestines and my heart. Feels to me like what he is aligning within me is a capability to fully digest those demons still scurrying around in my gut. Ha! Just the right inner medicine for the ongoing transformation ... - HM
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(C) 2009 Howard McQueenIf we take a look a the state of the Human condition,it certainly looks like we are caught up in some sort of race.To cover over with distortions, deceptions,cosmetic redirectionsmechanistic reflectionsour inner authenticity.Expanded and condensed truths are waiting to be defined.What a massive un-Education Projectis being readiedto restore spirit,authenticity andexpressions of Beauty.Hallelujah!It is up to us to bring it on.~ ~ ~
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(c) 2009 Howard McQueenTo shift and transform this seemingly dark juggernaut.Here is how I am seeing it unfoldIf there was not an equivalentaliveness of Graceand her attendants, forgiveness, compassion, ...We would have long agowiped this earth cleanof all traces ofHumanity.We have, at our disposal, our ancestral lineage,a bounty of energies to pull from.Know that you are not alonein your noble struggle.And there are our stories of heroes and heroines.I am feeling into young David and his courage tobring into balance the bullyand oppressive mass of Goliath.Such incredible spirit emerges whenwe decide to put it all on-the-line!Without this commitment,quality of life could already be given away,resolutely lost.
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(C) 2009 Howard McQueenLet me please have a double orderof visceral discomfortaccompanied with an in-depth understandingby directly experiencing these energies at play.And, slow it way down,so I can feel and observe it emergeand blossom in my imagination.Ah, so this is one of the trigger pointsthat cranks up my propensity towards contraction.Without this new found awareness,I'd keep caving in to the variousnameless energies, that I can now resolve andidentify as terror, revulsion, rejection, disgust, ...When I was once so intent on escaping or fleeing,now I begin to grok this game that's being playing.Take whatever time is neededto feel into these explicit sequences.Witness the energies and watch them turn less threateningand we will heal another one of our bound-by blindings.~ ~ ~
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(C) 2009 Howard McQueenSo, you've walked intothe Tavern of Annihilationbut you're still talkinglike you're holding outfor some concoctionor cocktail of salvation.Take a long sip from the depth of the Silenceand let everything you know be taken away,especially all that talk and chatter about spirituality.
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(C) 2009 Howard McQueenHold the simplicity of realizationthat everything external is but experience,and let Grace take care of everything else.In the presence of the faceless love,we bow and are undone.
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(c) 2009 Howard McQueenThe leprechauns, they need feedingalready again intoxicated from too much drinking.Ready the light and divine musicknown to stir open their hearts.Those leprechauns, their mischievousness always ready to peaktheir known proclivity toward mean-spiritedness and misdeed.Lets make sure they are warmed by the musicto instead celebrate the heart and be bawdyand outrageous with their fellowship.Let there be dancing and merriment in abundance,then those leprechauns can take these gifts of practiced experiencedeep into the healing balm of their sleep.~ ~ ~A blessing for all who hold pain and hurt in their heart and who have been struck down, once or repeatedly, by the anger, hostility and pain erupting from another. Let us see this violence for what it really is, so we can respond from the heart and not with fist, knife, pommeling cutting words or the arsenal of weapons. - HM
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